I'm currently in the state of Virginia, Virginia Beach Commonwealth. I haven't seen my two younger sons since February. Their father but hasn't been 90 days where he is taking me to court since then. I'm the one with the support order. The judge didn't ask for my pay stubs but saw his. This man makes $4,000 plus also has a disability income of his third child/girlfriend that lives in the house. Can somebody help me when it comes down to my 8-year-old for the first time he hung up on me and he told me he was angry because I haven't seen him. How do you explain to a child what's going on when you're constantly under a microscope or on speakerphone? I have to work at full-time job and only get 40% of my pay and I have to work. Another job just took over my rent. I received assistance for food, Medicaid and fine. I don't care about paying anything. I tried. I have documents I've tried for the school. I bought supplies. I bought school clothes I have but how am I supposed to make time for my children if I'm having to work three times as hard just to cover it to have a roof over my head? I've been in this system since I was eight so I know what my resources are and I've used the rest of my ability but if I'm not having a drug problem or a alcoholic or being abused or foreign or I'm on the streets homeless with my children. This state does not help you cuz if they did I would not be in this predicament. The guardian had Latin that was entitled in this case did not even ask about the children. She was so concerned about us discussing who has the full legal custody who has full physical custody. Are we in Green Bay visitation? This man is taking this court order and went to the school and made it seem like I'm the bad parent to where they school is taking initiative. I couldn't even go to my son's field trip and chaparral because his teacher said she had to reach out to his father and that his father told her that I had to let him know when I was spending time with my son. But in all actuality I couldn't even afford the additional $10 for the field trip. I am struggling over here. I don't know what else to do. I refuse to see it therapist why? Because I have been seeing it. There was since I was eight. I was supposed to say five mental health medications. If that was the case I would be a zombie. But at the same time I have a message and I want to share. But I need stability. I need help getting on my feet. I have no family. I really have friends. I've developed a syndrome to where I've confined myself into the room that I rent. I don't bother nobody. I don't drink. I don't go out and have fun. I stayed to myself in my room and I can find myself with music and try to figure out what I'm doing wrong and how I could fix this but I can't because I'm watching my childhood through my children. I went through the same thing but only different sentence. How do you fix this? I need the help. I want it better myself but I can't come up from water and get the life preserver so I can come ashore because I'm constantly being tormented by this man. Please help
