No contact for 3 years now
I Havnt seen my four children For a years now and it doesnt get any easier in fact it gets hatcer. The mum to my children Doesnt even allow the children who have phones have my or allow them to have me on any social platforms. She has even now stopped them seeIng all of my sIde of the family its heartbreaking. She doesnt realise the damage It is having on the children. Personally i class this as abuse due to the fact my oldest is 13 now and has asked his mum on numerous occasions now to see his dad but She refuses and tells him he can see me when he turns 16. The last time my oldest spoke to my sister he told her he wishes he could live with me. He has told my sister he feels abused by his mum as he is forced to do wverything. His mum makes him get his 2 brothers and his sister ready in the mornings and do there breakfast for them while she lays in bed with her other son she has had with another man. I was so heartbroken when my sister told me this. I felt quilty for a while and blamed myself for it all as my son wanted to see Me and thought and still think that is why she treats him different to the others and i wont lie i ended up in a very dark suicidal place. Luckily i had supportive family around me who reassured me it wasnt my fault and had to stay strong for my children so i took there kind caring advice and managed to pull myself out the dark place i fell into. If there is anyone feeling the same way i was please remember we can get through this and more importantly remember the children will know the truth in the end. Please stay safe everyone